adventure

19/5/05

2005-05-18T23:10:00.000-07:00

haiz.... so sianz... juz now we have firedrill sia... then tat stupid teacher pose in front for nothin.. must wait for so long somemore.. haiz... me... im fine todae... onli a bit upset.. why? well yesterdae, when i sent fazlina home... we saw her father... then she was scared tat her father might scold her again.. then todae.. we were happy on the wae home until she said about her father... she said tat she hate to see her father see us together... and she onli allow me to send her until xingnan bus stop.. but i said to her tat i want to send her until her blok and not going up to the 5th floor because i was worried bout her... yesterdae when i sent her, there were a grp of 4t2 student.. they disturb us but i ignore them.... but i am afraid tat if she went home alone, she might be disturb and she is alone... how is she going to ignore them.. tats why.. she juz dun understand how i feel bout her... i really cares bout her... haiz... but nvr mind.. i cannot do anythin lorz... if she want it tat wae then i will put it tat wae... i feel tat we are getting more apart... all this change could made us more apart... my greatest fear in my life is losing her... and it will not vanish from my heart... i really cares for her alot sia.. she juz dun realise it.. haiz... why me? why am i so miserable? why?!why?!why?! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why?! why am i fated tis wae?! haiz... i feel so miserable!!! worst then ever!!!! am i hated so much!!!!! then why!!!!! haiz.... :(

after my exams.... 16/5..

2005-05-17T08:34:00.000-07:00

hiez.. sori becoz i long time nvr update my blogspot.. im bz of preparing my mid year exams.... im gettin more miserable then ever.. i got back my results and failed three of it... it really sucks sia... haiyo... very bad sia... haiz... so sianz... how am i going to survive in my end of year.. i think tat it will be even worst.. okiez.. about the gal.. hmm.. oklah.. but i still jealous of her when she is talkin to other guyz especially that freakz iskandar and that f****** Rifat... i hate them sia.. iskandar got putri also still flirtatious... haiyo... haiz... and even cried juz now when mr teo talk to me juz now.. his words really touched my heart sia... i really cried... i when to the bath room and i punched the wall to release my anger... ny hand red sia.. im too miserable... and i dun noe how to overcome it sia.. i hope tat i will find a wae to overcome me or sumone will step in to help me with it... haiz.. sianz... oklah... me juz got back from silat.. i very tired sia... haiz... sianz... oklah... me gtg liao... byez

26/5/05

2005-04-26T01:09:00.000-07:00

26th april 2005
hiez... long time nvr update my blog... todae me so miserable... i tink i am alwaes miserable... it seems tat she did care for me anymore... iskandar change place becoz he wanted me to sit with her and iskandar want to sit with adam... but i was hurt once again.. as i was about to sit with her... adam sat beside her.. and adam asked her whether he can seat with her and she said "yes" of course wat else will she saes to a hensem guy.. unlike me.. im juz there watching.... adam said that wan would be jealous and guess wat she reply??? she sae nolah... then the next part i cannot hear clearly.... and there is me sittin there alone talkin to myself... laughin alone... i dun noe why tis happens to me... nvr mine i said to myself juz now... as long as she is happy i am willing to do anytin for her even if she is happy without me and i can leave her eventhough i dun wan to... i noe tat we are juz being frenz... but i can't seems to forget her that she is my gf ... the i can juz leave her like that and juz forget her... it will be hard for me... so the onli choice is to commit suicide but im not going to do that.. so i juz heve to suffer all my life... that is why i am miserable everydae..... oklah... but in the other hand, i passed my chem test... i even got the highest in the test.. i was shocked sia.. i studied it last minute yet i got top in the test.. haiz..... but still.. my life is miserable... sianz...

15/04/05

2005-04-15T18:19:00.000-07:00

friday.... 15/4/05
hiez.... todae is a very fun dae sia... at first its not lah but after tat really fun sia.. why?? bcoz at first i have to come back to school to do tehcertificates thing for the investiture.. then as i enter the room i cannot find it anywhere.... then got fed up sia... i onli noe tat adeline was the onli wan inside.. she was sleepin... sori to disturb her.. then she woke up.. w have a chat wif each other... she told me tat she is waitin for her fren for the karaoke contest.. then i felt excited sia.. i wan to go and see... then i watch the contest while waitin for fazlina bcoz she have npcc... at the concert i saw alo of singers sia.. some talented and some not...so funny sia they all... some also nvr follow music and the sec 1s laugh.. hahahah... at least they tried... after the concert i go down n wait for fazlina at the study bench... ass i go down the stairs i saw the whole grp of npcc cadet... i search for her and at last i found her.. its so obvious when i see her cute face and i i tease at here... hahahah..... so cute sia... at tat time the rain was so 'big'(valerie sae wan)hahaha.. broken english... then i wait for her almost one hour and at 6.30 we go home together... there was one ppart wen she wanted to take the stairs bcos the lift too many ppl.... then the stairs was dark and she said tat she cannot see me... then she laugh... i was happy to see her like tat.. hahahah.. oklah.. i wan to go sleep liao.. hahah. tomolo is another long dae... hahah byez

thursdae.... 14/4/05

2005-04-13T06:16:00.003-07:00

hiez.... here i am again... ready to read my long story again... ok.. here i go.. todae is not so bad larh... onli fail two test in my nafa test... which is the PULL UP AND STANDING BROADJUMP.... 3cm more sia... hahah.. nvr mine.. can try again during pe lesson... juz needs more practice... ok... erm.... anything happen with the gal?? nah... juz as normal.... as usual.. i finally get a chance to be with her sia.. not as bf and gf but as cloze frenz... yar.. quite sad... but nvr mine... i am happy to see her happy.. i still love her sia... tats why my life is boring... like i used to b4 i noe her... after i nown her, my life is very meaningful.. and she is like everythin 2 me sia... i get in the top ten last year bcoz of her sia.. i have to tink of her in order to succeed.... really miz her alot... yar.. sumtimes feel jealous wen sseen her...with other boyz.. tried to hide my jealousy... nah... nvr mine.. shes not mine anywae... she can be whoever she wan 2 b with... but i hope tat she will alwaes remember me and she noe tat i love her so much.... my life is meaning less without her.... i think tats it lah... 2molo i will continue again lah.. i wan to do my poa.. hahahaha.... byez...

part two......... 13/4/05

2005-04-13T06:16:00.002-07:00

hiez... my name is wan... my full name i muhammad nooradzuan bin hussein... long huh?? yar... tats me... basically im juz a normal human being.. notin special bout me wan.. i not tat hensem but cute.. hahahah.. yar.. i noe wat u are tinkin... u are tinkin why i so thick skin right?? c.. so smart of me... hahaha... im bored right now and tat is why i chose tis time to update my blog... my cca is band.. and our band got silver in the syf last mon... so happy sia... anywae... im also a prefect but my aim is not to be head prefect but instead being in the new band comitee.. but i surely cannot wan... if can also by luck.... hahah ..sum1 special? yar.. got sum1 special in my heart tat cannot be strucked off... she is very special to me.. i really treasure the time being wif her alot... i miz the oldd daes wen we are really happy together.. bak kate orang melayu.. bagai isi dengan kuku... alwaes together wan... but now... there is a huge gap between us... i tried my best to closen the gaps but it can't.. i dun noe wat.. all my effort wasted of tryin to proof her tat i really love her and care for her... and now she juz wans to be frenz.... eventhough i dun wan to but i have to in order to still be wwif her and have fun together but not as fun as we use to in the past... i wish tat i could understand her and i wish tat she could understand me.... its ok..... my life is stated tis wae.. tis is a test from above and i have to face it and not running away from it... saying i love u to a person does mean a thing unless the person is playin a fool lah... but to me... saying i love u to a person... it really means alot to me.... i think tat should be it lah.... too long later u will fall asleep wan.... okiez... byez.. gtg...

me, myself and i...... 13/4/05

2005-04-13T06:16:00.001-07:00

me, myself and i...... 13/4/05

2005-04-13T06:16:00.000-07:00

hiez... my name is wan... mmy full name is muhammad nooradzuan bin hussein.. quite long huh?? erm.. sori? my life? o... my life is basically very boring and bery the miserable... i not tat hensem but alot of ppl sae me hensem... hahax.... so sianz... i very bored sia... i have sum1 whom i really loved... she almost left me sia... lucky huh?? ya... i tried my best to convince her tat i really love her alot but not tat ssuccessful... nvr mine.. i understand... i really dun noe wat to do.. i hate wen everytime we quarrel... we will seldom talk to each other... and wen we quarrel, i hate to see her alone sittin there... but sometimes she also dun care wan... she will continue her as for normal... i am tryin to understan her BUT she did mot even give me enough time and juz make her decision like tat... so i agree to be cloze frenz wif her eventhough i do not wan to... in order to be wif her.. i alwaes treasure the time wen we were together becoz tat tat is the onli time tat we could be together and we seldom meet with each other and go out together... nvr mine... i will alwaes be there for her no matter wat.... sori for myy grammar mistakes.. haha.. nitez tis

checkin

2005-04-09T01:21:00.000-07:00

hmm...my new blog. check check. testing testing 1...a 2....a 3...ok fine.